Celebration

I want to celebrate today,

For I have won the battle.

Victorious, I feel in this epiphany,

Free from self-doubt’s heavy saddle.

Spread the word: she survived,

Wearing a smile as my victory banner.

A long road, but I’ve finally arrived;

Pen and paper were my armour.

Enemies are locked away,

No trial for those haunting demons.

I'd dig their roots if it would help,

No, they existed for all my lessons.

I was hurt and wounded,

Bled from scars not seen on skin,

Won't say I fought bravely,

But I never gave up so they could win.

So close to losing I once was,

When my saviour was a thought of my mother,

So far from winning, so unsure,

I wanted nothing, and no other.

Ever had two sides of one mind fight?

I had multiple voices trying to rule,

Life in contradiction was my compromise,

Though mask was always calm and cool.

No, you can't judge me today

For I am my own hero,

Won't fall into that trap again,

Not a victim and neither was before.

I am rising from the ashes,

And I am not afraid anymore,

I am whatever I am now,

And no, you can't ask why, for sure.

I'll dance and paint my nails,

And dress up in silk and chiffon.

I will cry and I will laugh,

And sing along to my favourite song.

I’m finally letting myself be;

It has been far too long.

Loving oneself is not easy.

No time to mourn,

For minutes lost and seconds gained —

Learning bit by bit,

And life moves on.

- Miss Viola 

#Selflove